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September’s Here & Summer’s Over.

Hey, hey, hey ladies and gents of the internet. Time for a quick blog post before I go back into work mode and today I wish to talk about the fact that the summer is over and how September has crept up on us so quickly.

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This seems to happen a lot and every year still surprises me how quickly it happens. Summer is there, you’re in the thick of it, either enjoying yourself or you’re bored out of your mind for days on end. Whatever your scenario is, the summer feels long while you’re in it. But you never notice the days go by and sure enough, it is the last week or August and you’re like “Where the shag did the summer go?” And before you even have time to blink it is September and all those happy thoughts you had about your free time, holidays or hang sessions with your friends and family are pretty much dashed aside as the normality of life kicks in once again. For kids, teenagers or young adults, it pretty much means back to school, college or university, however, if you’re not in the education bubble, then it means nothing besides going to work, and if you’re old enough then you’ll probably have been doing that over the summer and way before that if you’re in full-time or part-time work. For me, I used to be in the education bubble and for the last 8 years since I always had the feeling of dread/excitement when I knew I had to return to college or uni, but now I don’t have that. Since I finished uni in June, I’ve technically become an adult and have been working over the summer. It is only just dawning on me that I have nothing to go back to in September, that my life really has nothing major to return to and it is a relief and yet kind of surreal at the same time. The only thing I never look forward to at this time of the year is the return of annoyingly load school children, uni Freshers and the football season as well (god I despise it, it takes up too much TV time at my house).

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I dunno, September always represented the end of good times and the start of boring and dull routines (as the image above suggests), that being said, since I have no educational ties, I wonder where does life go for me now? I mean besides being a barman, I have no other regular commitments to tend to and it feels weird. That being said, there is much to look forward to on the horizon. TV is finally gonna get interesting again with the return of some of my favourite TV shows including, Castle, Boardwalk Empire, Parks and Recreation, Arrow and Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D., and then there’s all the new TV that will appear including Gotham and The Flash among others. Then I’ll have the Tokyo Game Show coverage taking place in a few weeks where hopefully I’ll get some juicy video game announcements and footage too.

So yeah, while I’m gutted that the summer is over I know there is good stuff on the horizon. Now I only have one question to ask you lot:

Dude blog # 1Be sure to comment below and let me know yo. 😀

 
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Posted by on September 2, 2014 in Life

 

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Playing The Waiting Game Until May

Hello ladies and gents, time for another blog post from the personal side of me. Lately life has gotten on top of me, mainly the same old problems like before (financial and educational), and it has left me feeling a little angsty. So I’ve released that right now, life is kind of lame and the only reason I’m dealing with all this bull right now is due to the month of May.

may-calender The month of May is time of new beginnings for me.

So you may ask what is so good about May? Well there’s several things. Firstly for films it’ll be a great month with Amazing Spider-Man 2, Godzilla, X-Men: Days of Future Past and Maleficent being among the most anticipated of that month and if they’re anything as good as they look then it’ll be a good time at the cinema.

Also May will be the point when I go to my first music concert of the year when I go to see Janelle Monáe in Manchester. She is one of my favourite musicians and I have waited for ages to see her live, hopefully this year will be my time. After that I have two major events going down in July involving a film convention and another Legend of Zelda concert too.

But the most importantly May is the month when I finish university, FOREVER. Just the feeling alone knowing that uni will be over in a few months is enough for me to endure this complicated educational adventure a little longer. Don’t get me wrong, uni has been one of the best experiences of my life both in and out of class, but right now I’m going through education fatigue and I’ve had my fill. I can’t wait for all that free time to be mine again. To be able to sleep, play video games or go to the cinema and not feel guilty or have to worry about any hand-ins. That freedom will also allow me to blog more and get back to my YouTube stuff in full force, cannot wait to be free and do more creative projects on my terms.

So to summarize, right now life isn’t bad, but the future holds so much promise that I can’t wait for May to come along and end this current nightmare yo. 😛

 
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Posted by on February 15, 2014 in Life

 

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What the hell is going on with my life right now?

I don’t what the deal is right now, but in my life right now I don’t even know what the deal is. I feel like I’m just going through the days of the year not actually paying attention to what’s going on around me. Besides my nights out, hang time with my friends and when I go to the cinema everything else feels so tedious, boring and lifeless. And once again it comes back to education.

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See this picture perfectly sums up how I feel about my life and education at the moment.

Now while I really shouldn’t be complaining about my life because it could be much worse, honestly though I feel like times could be a lot better. My course at university is no longer interesting and my current modules are a far cry from anything actually worth doing. It is just some stuff that I’m no longer paying attention to. You when you were in school and daydreamed while you were in lessons? Well I do that nearly all the time, sometimes I wonder why I wake and go into class, it just feels so pointless. And that’s not the way one should feel when they fought very hard to get into their chosen university with the course they really wanted to do. Right now in my second year of animation I’ve grown tired of university and I really just want it to end.

Even outside of my course things are totally out of whack; on my days off from uni most days just blend in to each other and never know what’s going on. Besides blogging that keeps my mind at ease and when the cinema has films I want to watch I am content with the world, but right now I am dealing with my current financial issues as usual and also dealing with the worst landlord in the history of existence so life isn’t terribly easy.

Right now I just want the months to speed up so we can get to the summer where uni will be over and I’ll be moved out of this house and moved into a much better place with my good mates.

Well I apologize for giving you such a disheartening blog post to read and I pray the next one will be much more fun to read!

 
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Posted by on February 28, 2013 in Life

 

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The Day I Turned My Back On My Educational Morals

Ah life, it is funny isn’t it? You never know what’ll come next, you just gotta ride it out and see where it takes you. One of the strange things about it is how you subtly change without really noticing it, and for me that is definitely something I’ve began to notice over the last year, especially when it comes to education.

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Hmm sometimes I do wonder about that…

Now don’t get me wrong I’m not saying education is not important, far from it. If you were to ask me if I was for or against it I’d totally be for it, however in the latter years of college I found myself wondering if I what I was learning was relevant to me and what I wanted in life. But college was college, I just wanted to get through it so I could move on to new heights at university… However this is where the real bullshit kicked in. While I love Sheffield and its many various places to shop, party and just generally hang out, I can’t say the same for my university experience. Since coming to Sheffield Hallam in 2011 my course has made me question why go to uni in the first place, I mean sure I am paying for it and it SHOULD be enjoying the course I picked right? WRONG! My animation course for all its bells and whistles is only around 30% actually animation-based stuff, everything else is just some other form of bullsh*t that has nothing to do with the subject matter and it sucks!

Now in most cases I feel a commitment to show up to class all the time, I have done for years and until uni came into play my attendance record in school and college was flawless. In uni when second year started in September my attitude towards class changed and for the first time I started skipping classes. They weren’t important classes so it wasn’t that bad, but the fact was that I missed them and it felt weird. However today was the real day that I turned my back on class and just said, “F*ck it.I’m off.”

Today I had a workshop class and it at 09:15 (I hate early morning starts!), so I got up and ran to uni. I had to drop off a camera I borrowed a few days beforehand so I went there and handed it in. Then I had to find my class but there was one problem I wasn’t sure where specifically it was. So I ran around uni trying to find it but to no avail, so then I used a PC to have a look at where we were meant to be and I found out it was at another building… At that point I was like “I’m already late, forget this I’m going home.” And that was it. That was the point where my education mindset changed.

Now I easily could have run to the building and come in late, but my tutor said to be there on time and I’m one of those guys that works in two ways: 1) You show up on time or 2) Don’t show up at all. That is a code I’ve always lived by and it applies here too. The whole weird thing about this situation thing about this situation is that I’ve never just no to education, sure in college I used to moan about it a lot but then I’d move on and get on with it. But now in uni I find myself more and more not caring about what I am learning. Only around have of it is relevant to me and my favourite module so far was an elective module on script writing WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANIMATION!

I dunno this is truly a time of great change if I, the man who never misses anything is starting to change is morals that he so desperately held on to in school and college. Well I won’t be ditching class forever, that much I now right now, though I will be counting the days, just waiting for this educational crazy adventure to end.

 
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Posted by on February 6, 2013 in Life

 

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Back To Uni

I can remember chilling in the summer when uni seemed so far away. Though I kept thinking to myself in the latter part of August, “I’m bored with the summer, I want to go back to uni.” Unfortunately I ran into some formalities with my uni that really messed up second year before it even started, so when September came around I didn’t actually want to go back. But time has passed, the summer has totally come and gone and this week I returned to that place of higher learning and to be honest it wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be.

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Going back to this year felt like both a good thing and a bad thing.

So this week entering the doors of university as a second year student feel extremely weird because just last year it was my first time going through those doors and entering the various buildings around the campus. Though I did feel awesome because I know everything about building, from the locations of the classrooms to the bathrooms and so on and so forth and every time I saw a first year I just thought to myself “Those freshers, they have no idea of what they’re in for.” I really do like to be in the know, so now that I know what to expect this year and have a better concept of how the structure of my course works and the facilities available to me I feel like I can attack the second year in a much better way than last year and not make the same mistakes that I did last year. Year one of animation really was a mixed bag of interest, confusion and suffering, it really did open my eyes to what university is about and the way it can easily overwhelm you if you’re not paying attention.

Anyway, I went back to my first class on Monday and we have a module in visual storytelling and while the course content sounds cool, the tutor we have really just makes the lessons drag and I said I’d really try with uni this year, but being in her classes makes uni really painful and tedious. So that wasn’t the best start to the year in all truth. On Tuesday it only got worse from there as I had a 6-hour day.  My first module was at 9am! 9 BLOODY AM! I haven’t been up that early in forever and it took me almost 2 hours to shift out of bed and it really wasn’t worth the effort for my first lesson. 😦 In that lesson we had to learn about professional context and while it seems like a useful module, the guy we had went on FOREVER! I’ve never been in any lesson in history where a tutor has talked for as long as he did, I couldn’t listen to all of it, after around 2 hours I sort of just heard parts as I was drifting in and out of sleep. Then after that class was over I only had 1 hour until my next class in 3D animation character modelling. going back to 3D Max wasn’t a very joyous experience, but it was partially fun just to hang with my classmates. And then there was Wednesday where I started the module I had to re-sit in practice skills which involved more 3D Max (oh the suffering!), luckily the lesson wasn’t nearly as tedious as I thought it’d be.

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3d animation software is not the one, it’s so tedious.

So after all of that disappointment in the animation areas of my course I didn’t have much hope for my elective module in film writing. But heck it was the best lesson ever. I learnt so much. It was so relaxed and creative and the tutor was totally awesome, this was the best lesson I’d ever had. I never knew learning about script writing would be so much fun. I still find it funny how the best lesson I have in my week has nothing to do with animation haha. I’ll be interested to see how the rest of this term pans out and whther I’ll be able to get my act togther in the work department or whether teh work will consume me.

 
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Posted by on October 4, 2012 in Life

 

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Rant 07: Failure; it sucks doesn’t it?

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Howdy people and welcome to another installment in my blogging rants and today’s subject will be on the concept of failure and how it continues to follow me in my life no matter what I do.

Now I’d like to think I’m an optimist, I’m normally fairly jolly and go through life with a grin on my face and I’d like to think I try my hardest in any endeavour I undertake. However for as long as I remember I’ve always found myself in a position of failure in life especially on the education front of things.

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Education, one area of my life that has been plagued with failure since my days in school.

Now I’m not stupid by any means, however I’m not absurdly smart either. In school I always needed extra help trying to understand certain things and if you broke the information down for me into its most basic elements then I’d be able to work. But a lot of my teachers never bothered with me because they got tired of trying to teach me because I didn’t learn as fast as everyone else. I’d ask for help but since I found it hard to express myself when I was younger teachers never really understood me and would get frustrated with me. And because of those teachers and their lack of help my grades suffered. I never really got great GCSEs in school and that was my first great failure and while I said to myself that I’d take what I got given and move on, I never really got over my GCSE results. And its affected my life since. So then college came into play and on my new art course I said I’d make a good effort with it… However failure wasn’t too far away. Unfortunately I ran into the same issues I had when I did GCSE art in school, and while I tried my hardest and did better than I did in school I still got a pretty bad grade overall.

Luckily my media courses weren’t nearly as cruel to me. Though some of the projects on my national diploma course was full of pain and suffering. There were points where I wasn’t doing as well as everyone else and I would get really annoyed at myself. So then came last year came around I started animation at uni in Sheffield and I thought I’d be in my element thanks to it being something I really wanted to do. But fate dealt me a really cruel hand. In one of my modules I had to do work in 2D and 3D animation and photography and trying to understand the work in lessons was a tad complicated and again some of the tutors would get frustrated when you asked for help. So I did what I could with the module, but in the end I messed and never got the work in on the deadline and failed the module, which in turn means that this year in addiction to doing all my Year 2 work I have repeat my previous Year 1 module. And again I feel so pissed off that out of my entire class I’d be the person to fail that one module. It really is bullshit. And in the last year in Sheffield there’s been one other issue that’s been bugging me for some time; getting a job. Goodness knows I’ve tried looking for one and while I have had a few interviews here and there, no one’s employed me. While obtaining a job isn’t the easiest thing to do for a student, somehow people I know seem to be able to do it with next to no effort and it really makes me wonder if I’m just doing something wrong or something or whether the concept of failure is just following me in the area of job hunting too.

So after all this you may ask if you’ve got so many issues why don’t you just do something about it and sort it out? Well believe me, I’ve tried. I work harder than the year before and yet things still seem to fall apart. Some say that I am being too hard on myself and maybe that’s true, but the thing is I’ve always expected so much of myself so when I fail at anything it hurts me on mental level a lot. I’m a guy who always likes to strive for success and when it doesn’t come I get frustrated and sad at myself. University hasn’t helped my pride much and has left me in a questionable state of mind. I just hope this year I’ll be able to turn everything around and finally get my shit on track not only with university but with my life in general.

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Posted by on September 28, 2012 in Life, Rant

 

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Most Things Happen For a Reason

It has been something I have thought about for quite some time now, but only in more recent times in my life has it become more and more obvious. The whole concept of “actions have consequences” or believing in fate, regardless of what you call it, in my life it seems like that stuff actually applies a great deal. While most may call it a series of highly coincidental occurrences I say that sometimes some of that stuff actually happened for a reason and in a lot of cases my life has been better for it. Like how in the world of education I never got the grades I wanted after school so I had to take additional courses in college to get the qualifications necessary to get to Level 3 and while it was a pain to see my mates from school advancing I can’t regret my movements in college. I met so many lovely people who became my friends, I learnt so many additional skills that lent themselves to my later courses and in the 4 years I spent at college I got so many more opportunities than I would have if I had gotten super high marks in school, so in a way I’m sort of glad of my failure in a way haha. And that also applies to university as well. I had applied for uni in 2010, but then bailed before making my full application through UCAS at the end of that year, so throughout the academic year of 2011 I took a year out and did volunteering. And those days were some of the best times of my life, gaining more skills, getting work experience, networking and so on and so forth. Even when I applied to Westminster and didn’t get in there but was accepted at Sheffield Hallam University I was thinking maybe things would be alright. After all that I knew that this was all part of the bigger picture. So then I went into uni in September and since I have made some incredible new friends, I like my new course and living the university life is an incredible experience.

But sometimes the things that happen in life may not be as big, in fact it could just be the little things like meeting up with friends or certain people in those random locations are the things I find really special. So many times I have been late to a place or chose to take another direction to go to a certain place only to find an old friend or a mate who I haven’t seen in months or years and it feels so good to hang and talk. Back at Christmas I met up with an old friend who I hadn’t seen for 2 years and I was just mentioning him in a conversation with another friend when he just appeared out of nowhere. On that day I know that fate had a plan. Or take this more recent occasion when I was getting off the train I happened to spot my friend’s girlfriend and him on the other side train and we got to catch up again. Now this guy is in the army and it’s normally around 6 months before he comes back to visit, so after I saw him in December I thought there wasn’t gonna be a chance for me to meet him for ages, but there he was on the train with his girlfriend. And to think if I’d gotten the train I originally set myself for an hour earlier then that wouldn’t have happened. Again it had to be fate calling and it felt so good. While most of these occurrences have just been by chance or a strange twist of fate, they really have made me happier or made my life better in some way shape or form.

Sometimes however one has to endure times of great pain and struggle and suffer some of those days where you wish you hadn’t gotten up in the morning. Those are the days that frustrate you, depress you, hurt you, possibly make move you to tears or leave you in an emotional state for some time to come and that’s when you start to question whether things were meant to play out like the way in which they do. God knows I have done that on plenty of occasions. In my life I have suffered with my education from school right up until now in university, also for some reason I can’t seem to keep sustainable friendships with my older friends as they continuously drift out of my life through no fault of my own or take for instance that I used to be completely obsessed with drawing and making things within the area of art and cartoons, but these days I barely do any of that stuff and I’m lucky if I find the time or the effort to draw something truly meaningful. So one does wonder is this the life I should truly be living? Is there something better? Do I have to sit through all this shit before the good stuff comes around?

So right now I am thinking that maybe there is a reason why everything in my life has played out the way it has, I’ve always been a man who has liked to roll the dice of life and see where it takes me and for the most part every move has been a good one. Though I have rolled and lost many times, but as with most things in life not everything is gonna be happy-go-lucky all the time and you gotta go through a lot of shit before you make it through the other side. Though there are some who don’t have that problem, some make it though life without any problems or worries, I call those people rich people. But forget them, fate is a thing that I believe to some degree, though it is highly questionable with the way in which certain things go down in the world. Some may say that fate doesn’t existence and we ourselves make our own luck/fates and while I agree with that totally, I can’t help but feel that there is a greater force making sure I land in the places that I do.

 
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Posted by on February 5, 2012 in Life

 

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Giving up is bad, but i feel like doing it.

Its strange, I’m currently at this point in my life where everything has just come to a halt, like a stalemate, a deadlock. Even though I have many things that I would like to do or tackle in terms of my own side projects outside of university and all that, I just feel at this current point in time that everything has fallen apart, been scrambled and thrown into a tumble dryer. There is a level of indecisiveness that is floating around in my mind that is making feel very irrational and that’s made me think about something that I’m actually considering taking action on; quitting on the education scene.

Straight from the outset that sounds crazy, foolish and a coward’s way out. And under normal circumstances I wouldn’t say such crazy things but after last week things have shifted my mind into unknown territory and for the first time I’m questioning decisions I make and thinking I should undo some of the things that I have done recently. And strangely the majority of my thoughts have been edging towards my education and wondering if it is worth all of this trouble, the logical side of me says yes, but this erratic, indecisive side of me is saying maybe I should bail before things become more complicated or before I decide to continue on and somehow decide somewhere down the line that this isn’t the course of action that I wish to take, that doing that animation course isn’t my calling and that my skills could be applied in another field of work. Right now I’m not in a calm place, nothing is normal, everything is illogical and I’m questioning everything. So I don’t know, maybe I should just sleep on things, find a new hobby, find a creative structure in my life and maybe things will change, maybe I’ll find my way out of this funk and get back into my jolly groove and not think so unnaturally.

It’s funny how this is my first blog post of 2012 and it’s already starting out on a depressing note and subject matter. My first post of 2012 was actually going to be a lot different, though that post is still drafted and has yet to be completed and I still haven’t decided whether I’ll bother finishing it, so we’ll see what happens.

 

 

 

 
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Posted by on January 18, 2012 in Life

 

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